In Love

"Simon and Garfunkel wrote that very haunting song, The Sound of Silence . It goes: Ten thousand people, maybe more. People talking without speaking; people hearing without listening; people writing songs that voices never shared, because no one dared disturb the sound of silence... It is a terrifying picture of our modern world, a world without communication and without love." -Corina

It's 2:45 am, I can't sleep...I have to write...I just came to this conclusion which opened my eyes and I think revealed my biggest fears..

Love and being in love - two significantly different things:

If you love someone you care deeply about them and make sure they are alright and that they are safe. If you are in-love with someone - you cannot wait for the next moment you can see them, you plan ahead and think of when is the next time you could possibly see eachother, you want to talk to them every waking moment, you want to call them up as soon as you see something that you think they may want to hear, or something that reminds you of them. When you are in love you feel it, you think about that other person so much it begins to cloud your mind, things you do begin to be influenced somewhat by this other person - in a good way. When you're in love you try your hardest to be close to that other person, because to you for that moment they mean everything. As hard as it would be to tell them, they are everything to you and even the closest of friends you've had up to that point become secondary - of course they are still there and you haven't forgotten about them, but this person you are in love with becomes somehow the center of your universe. You would do anything to make sure that the person you are in love with is safe, you would go through fire just to make sure they're ok, you would go to the end of the world and sometimes do things for them and because of them, which you would have never thought of doing or even considered possible - but now they are and as foolish as it may seem it isn't, it's because you're in love. You look at your phone or check your e-mail hoping they'd sent you something, you frown when they don't but it won't last long because the love you have for them is far greater and will suppress any negative feelings. You get this energy and positive vibe about you, this glow and this smile from ear to ear, the look that a person has when he/she is in-love. You become invincible to the world as this almost super-power of being in love takes over you.

I feel like the term I LOVE YOU and I AM IN LOVE WITH YOU are being mixed up a lot. I feel like some people may not understand the difference or think it's the same. It is not! The only instance where someone would not understand what I had just described above for the term IN LOVE, would be someone who has not felt it. It is easy to say I LOVE YOU and confuse it with I AM IN LOVE WITH YOU, it is easy because feelings of attraction to someone or adoration, infatuation if you may, can cause one to think they are IN LOVE, however these tend to die out quickly, leaving this habitual feeling of 'love' which in fact is just being comfortable with the person and thinking that that's how things are supposed to be after a while...die out. NO! Things may take a slower pace, but they do not die out, that's if the whole being IN LOVE factor is mutually expressed. Now...sadly one may actually be in love with someone and think by that other's actions that so is he/she, but what if all they were feeling all along was this infatuation/lust/attraction which died out shortly after...what happens then? Unfortunately ladies and gents, this is why they say love is blind, because being in love with someone makes you loose your senses and completely ignore little signs that later become things that you once couldn't live without - yet now they are gone or barely occurring.

I sit here and I wonder how something one could fear so much, take for example falling in love - because people fear it, will come so unexpected and just settle in one's mind and heart. How is it that one would quickly and completely fall for someone after being so cautious to not stray away from the side of the road and onto the middle, how is it that someone can fall so blindly and not realize that perhaps it was just them falling, perhaps it was just them being in love in the middle of the road while the other person was always on the side, or strayed for a bit curiously tackling at the middle but then retreated to the comfort zone. How is it that one would fall so blindly and keep wanting to believe that the other person is also feeling the same? How can one try to convince themselves that the feeling is really mutual and that they have not fallen alone, how can one prove to another that they indeed are in love with them and do not intend on leaving them to the side, to when it's convenient for them to see the other person? How does one know...and why is it that being in-love lifts you up on such an incredible high yet also sometimes manages to throw you down so hard until all is left of you is little pieces, which again after a while will be put together, only to be broken again, maybe not so hard next time...


...or at least so we hope.