Felt the need to write again..

"Never make someone a priority when all you are to them is an option!" - Good quote, damn good actually. I try to live by it but lately I've failed. I often tend to make those who I care about a priority in my life...whether they are relatives, old or new friends, etc. Why? I don't know honestly but maybe because I care and I like to know that they are taken care of and that I'll be there for them. Sadly, without necessarily expecting them to reciprocate but hoping that one day they may, most of these people are just WAY too involved and focused on themselves that they just simply DO NOT GIVE A DAMN about others. I think if people were less involved in themselves and started caring about the welfare of others and the environment that surrounds them, the world would be a whole better place. Unfortunately...the sad truth revealed it's nasty head!

I feel kinda down, maybe just moody lately. Ugh! I wanna get away because my mind has been pretty cluttered with nonsense esp. this past week and it's bullshiiitttt lol. Lately, I feel like I've been wasting a lot of my time and attention on certain individuals who simply don't deserve it. Looking back I realize that it was very stupid of me to do so because when the wheels turn and I need that time and attention from them, it is rarely ever reciprocated. Also, people seem to confuse me being nice and very open with something else...either way, I can't and won't change who I am and how I choose to live my life for anyone...comprende?! I am pretty carefree most of the time, love a good laugh and enjoy the company of friends. Most times when I am able to I am always there for people when they need me and will offer any and every sort of lending hand, toe or whatever else I can find in order to help them. Seems that lately people have been taking that for granted and it taught me that most humans in general are never satisfied...no matter how you go about trying to help them, be there for them, listen to them...they will ALWAYS find a way to say that it was not enough.

I REALLY WANT TO GO RUNNING...but it's effin' pouring out and I don't feel like getting my sneakers all wet again like I did a few days ago when I ran in the thunderstorm haha. Can't wait to depart for Europe in less than a week and forget about certain things and people. When I get back I'll be a different person! :]