It's 1:06 am and I can't sleep...at all. There is one 'thing' on my mind that I can't get rid of, nor do I try to anymore, I am out of strength to keep fighting how I feel. I have not felt this conflicted emotionally in so long...maybe never quite in this way and I don't even know how it all began. I can't ignore my feelings any longer, but it's what I continue to do..just bottle everything up for fear. Am I the only one losing my mind? I want to laugh and cry in the same time, it is driving me completely out of my mind. I want to hike up a mountain and yell it all out loud but I feel as though I am several thousand feet below ground.
How does this happen? You think all you have is perfect, fairy tale with a happy ending and then one day out of nowhere some'thing' comes along and sweeps you off your feet and drops you hard on your ass making you see things you never thought would ever take over your mind and well.. heart.
It is what happened and I can't fight it anymore. 'There are 101 reasons why' I should try hard to fight this inevitable feeling, but I've no more energy left.
I suppose I'll end it with these quotes..
"The heart has its reasons that reason knows nothing of..."
"Cand inima se aprinde pe neasteptat, ea nu te intreaba si nu o poti ignora."
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